Courage

it takes courage to be honest. honesty with self has to come first. it takes courage to feel and heal; courage to grieve when wounded. i have unhealed wounds. i have some forming scar tissue and some scabbed over. some others my skin has healed over...over time. i may not know consciously what it is i am grieving but part of me does. i have to honor that part of self that requires grieving and healing. sometimes i don't want to. sometimes i resist. then the pain will persist. i can stand in the way of my own growth, so steadfast in ignoring that i hurt. this causes me further pain and prolongs my process but i still do it at times. i need courage to be honest with myself that i am hurting. that i am grieving and in pain. i must look deeply and intently into my wounds and listen to what they have to teach me. they will not be denied. i will get out of my own way and let my feelings live. i must be honest. i must have courage...