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relationships suck and i want to cut and run... not a new feeling but trying to learn to sit with the pain and tenderness... will see how that goes

Courage

it takes courage to be honest. honesty with self has to come first. it takes courage to feel and heal; courage to grieve when wounded. i have unhealed wounds. i have some forming scar tissue and some scabbed over. some others my skin has healed over...over time. i may not know consciously what it is i am grieving but part of me does. i have to honor that part of self that requires grieving and healing. sometimes i don't want to. sometimes i resist. then the pain will persist. i can stand in the way of my own growth, so steadfast in ignoring that i hurt. this causes me further pain and prolongs my process but i still do it at times. i need courage to be honest with myself that i am hurting. that i am grieving and in pain. i must look deeply and intently into my wounds and listen to what they have to teach me. they will not be denied. i will get out of my own way and let my feelings live. i must be honest. i must have courage...

monotony

do you ever feel the monotony of daily life? i try to find the wonder and amazement yet at times i feel the daily grind is grinding on my nerves. like why do i have to stop at red lights? i understand their purpose and i respect that but at times i don't want to be slowed down. also for example why doesn't the Brita refill itself so i can enjoy clean water and why doesn't the toilet paper roll holder go get another one when its empty? this is the kind of monotony i am talking about. ahh but so it is. i have yet to manifest away around these things into my reality... any hints?!?

Hello to all...

Hello all...
I am so glad to be here. My friend Rev. Dr. Scarlet Raeann Raphael introduced me to this site. She is so knowledgable and interesting I would strongly recommend checking out her blog as well. I am going to begin a journey into the years of experience I have had in this lifetime. I am grateful to have a venue to share in. For a very long time now I have envisioned a book of poetry, art and writings entitiled Therapy Revisited... so here I begin this blog to honor a longtime need to spill my truth. I hope you enjoy learning as much as I do and we can take this journey toghether from here on out. Happy reading!!!